पागल पंती....Plz do not extract meaning out of it...

last theory exam of NIFT----God ! seems like yesterday when we used to mug up whole night collectively in the hostel for the 1st sem theory paper---- time flies indeed! -------Reading and learning is still so difficult---------why am I studying ? I should enjoy----the ending-----as if! who cares! ----I want to go back to school-----I want to "redo" my boards exam!----why did I screwed my 10th,12th board?----I should have performed far better-----as if! ------Nothing remains forever-----who remembers exam numbers now-----there is no need to mention that in CV even!------Passed 10th, 12th, graduate,that's it!------why do we screw all our lives for them then?--------मोह माया का जंजाल है सब ------लो हो गई शुरू फालतू की नाप जोख --------huh!-------I remember the day when one of my niece studying in class 5th came up to me and said ," आपके नाम की स्पेल्लिंग मुश्किल क्यों है?? आज हमलोग के General knowledge के exam में ये लिखने को आया था की स्कूल की SPL का नाम क्या है, और teacher ने spelling ke marks kaate. -------what an honour ------मेरा नाम सामान्य ज्ञान का सवाल -------- people over-estimate me! -------God knows why!--------So what? Its so nice of everyone--------Last week some friends referred to me as their Thesaurus-dictionary-intellectual------blessed with such good people around!-------although I'm equally subject to errors as others---------I want to break free.-------too much of exam submission and heat----------I want to crib-gossip and talk nonsense--------I want to be like others-------no, I want to go home----its around 6 months now -----actually I cant----I envy mummy papa-----talking to them on phone I can clearly hear cuckoo chirping aloud on uncle's mango tree----I miss that summer bonanzaa------mummy used to make that अमझोरा out of mango ----मुरब्बा----अचार------कुत्चा------सत्तू की लिट्टी----लिच्ची ----जामुन-----नीम की निम्बोली जिससे हमलोग मारपीट करते थे -Why, what will they------ evaluate for two months during internship---------nothing-------Its too tiring!-----but I'm enjoying it too----------enjoy------I hate this word now-------I hate being sweet-----being cute! -------what the hell--------इतनी गर्मी क्यों है यार---------I want to learn something new---fresh------with good friends--------may be french-------may be art appreciation--------may be Spanish--------may be nothing-----huh I wont------I want to write a book-----huh! who will care to publish then---- ----if published, who will read-------no one should-------even I wont read my own book ever------ I want to stitch a new fabric bag------my bag is old now-------machine for a change has started working properly------- may be some new craft--------no........I don't want to work now-------- बस बहुत हो गया अब जा रही हूँ मन का द्वार-हो जाओ "shut up"!