Tranquility?

What do you call a phase when all ambition, desires, needs, want, crave, demands, hunger, thirst, hobbies, dreams- team up and vanish?

ü Nonchalant, numb silence prevails in this phase which prevents you from dreaming anything.

ü Worried from your silence, sometimes an old friend calls you up but you are reluctant enough to talk. Your own voice seems unknown, hoarse and strange. Unknowingly a huge space /gulf distance is created and you cannot help it.

ü You start hearing slow music with equal emotion-less-ness as you hear rock. Because it is evident that music heals, so you hear/play it as a routine job, but enjoyment is missed.

ü Books of all genres seem the same. Every story has the similar end.

ü You want to turn spiritual, but that divine chord has somehow scrambled and no longer can a communion with that bright light be established. You know that one day everyone will die of one’s own sin!

ü You cannot describe your favorite color, food or dress. No choice and no taste sustains anymore.

ü The tigress of bravery and the monkey of mockery inside your conscious frame a friendship and laugh at your helpless-ness.

ü Neither do you want to live, nor do you want to die.

ü Basically you are confused, and out of that confusion - laziness, reluctance, numbness and silence erupt and make your whole system so mediocre that you have no ‘urge’ to do anything at all!

‘You ‘or ‘I’ can just sit in a corner and gasp cold air of oblivion!