A Tryst with sprituality.

I am not religious. Neither am I a spiritual person. Yet, I have witnessed few supernatural , beyond ordinary things which are worth a mention. My best friend says that she had a vision of someone watching her constantly in her room. Call it a ghost, a soul or the God. I am not orthodox and superstitious. But there is definitely some power above normal beings which controls birth,death,life  and every thing that lies within. Alternatively that can be said to be a Faith, a belief on conscious being, which makes us so strong, that we do actions which becomes extraordinary.
I had a long discussion with my बड़ी मौसी , who is an ardent devotee and a soulfully awake person. In fact she has controlled all her grief, anger, whims, prejudices and has witnessed truth. My family sees her as the source of all wisdom and energy. She told me how one day she saw the supreme one in the life's simplest form. I thought that spiritual awakening can be attained only when you are old, religiously spiritual person. But I was wrong! Hearing her narration, I was able to recollect that even I have witnessed something beyond cranial capacity to understand, although never realized it before.

  1.This incident happened during my Adventure trip to Hrishikesh with college friends. Everyone was on a high. Even I was enjoying the sunshine, laughter and nature to the fullest. But, owing to the hilly terrain, climate and unhealthy food, I fall ill. I succumbed to acute De-hydration, 20-30 loose motions, 5-6 times vomiting. I was in deep trouble. Since, this was an adventure trip, so we had to trek 5 km uphill, raft in Ganges for 28 km and travel all along. Being, ill, I could have abstained, but something inside my head said, go on...nothing could happen to you in this auspicious land. You are so strong. And I did attempt both the adventures.

While rafting, in the middle of the Ganges when huge wave seemed to engulf us overall and owing to my weak health condition I was trembling with nausea, cold and fear, something happened. Something extraordinary happened. I closed my eyes with all the might, I felt my heart stiffening, and no other sensation in the body was felt. Then that blinding light. Such brilliant, bright light, I had never seen in my life. It illuminated, screeched and troubled me for a while, and then I was accustomed. Moments later, it soothed me, made me happy, I smiled and Lo! It was gone! I could now hear my fellow rafters shouting with thrill and joy and asking me to do as the guide on the raft was telling to do. This made me so strong. Although, my nauseating De-hydration was not cured instantly, yet it waned off.  

2. Whenever I am left alone to manage things on my own, few un-imaginable things happen. That first night in the NIFT hostel when my parents came to drop me in the new hostel, among new faces, all alone in the country’s capital and an entirely new behavior-demeanor of the people around is worth a mention here.. Although I could hear my heart pounding up and down in stress, yet suddenly something happened. A shrill Voice in my ears that numbed all my hearing sensation. It penetrated deep inside the ears. Initially I thought it to be borne out of my Migraine which was continuing till then, but then no headache resurfaced. This voice continued from another few moments in which I saw Bro’s lips moving, reading which was so amusing. I could not understand the whole thing since I could see things happening, my parents rising from the visitors chair and mummy turning back  twice with pain in her eyes, asking me something, to which I nodded since I couldn’t hear anything and then they left.

I stood there for another couple of moments after which my hearing sensation returned. I could hear the hustle bustle and all activity. At that time this incident was an ordinary one for me, but gradually whenever I saw girls of my age lose their Emotional Quotients every now and then, I realized importance of that voice then. In fact while my hostel mates found loneliness and distance from the home as a disturbing ailment, I fiddled with the questions like how long are these known faces going to last in my life.

With such a temperament, I found a similar soul, my best friend, who was fiddling with the similar questions as mine. She became my friend for life! 

3. During my GP internship, I had to travel to Punjab frequently. I had never been there previously. That too, managing everything all alone was a mammoth task. Although things were arranged, AC Chair Car in Shatabdi express, Hotel’s room, car to take me to the factory every day, food-whatever I ordered and the whole export house setup at my disposal to work however I wished.

But as they say it ,for an in-fashionable village girl like me, this lavishness was proving to be beyond my ethics to bear all at once. My aim in life was never to live a ‘rich’ life, but a ‘Queen size’ life where I had my dear ones in close affinity to me. The Day I realized this I had a big argument with the MD and I refused his offer to join the job, given double the salary that my fresher friends were offered. I thought that, this would harm my work but instead, these people started depending upon me. I was sent to handle the French and Italian designer-merchandiser delegates and represent the company since I could speak the truth and handle things.

That day while returning back from the work I felt that the sky has become higher and clearer but I could touch it! Back in the college, I stopped giving importance to people who bothered me badly. In fact, being judged was no more a hoax! I enjoyed it thoroughly! 

4.As a child, one of the astrologers predicted that whenever I wished something from my heart for someone in anger, that will happen. He also said that I should control my fury and calm down. Everyone laughed off. My Bro named me ‘Lady Durwasa’ and then we all forgot that incident. Years later, whenever someone hurts me, not me but that supernatural nature takes the revenge. Circumstances make them repent their mistakes automatically. Not that I am always right, but that ultimate being makes me believe that there exists something divine, something beyond ordinary and right! May be that is just faith in myself that makes me do things.